New York Times and USA Today bestselling author Molly McAdams’ powerful new novel offers one of the most memorable love triangles in fiction since Twilight—perfect for fans of New Adult fiction like Jamie McGuire, Abbi Glines, and Tamarra Webber.
Aurora Wilde’s life feels like a series of what ifs, forks in the road, and doors unopened. What if she hadn’t gone to the party that night? What if Jentry Michaels hadn’t captured her interest, ordisappeared the next day? What if Declan Veil hadn’t been there to sweep her off her feet?
And as she goes down the list to make her perfect forever, Aurora is happy with her life and a future that seems completely secure. Until, one day, suddenly it’s not. Now she’s stuck between the man who has been there for her and the one she never stopped thinking about.
As the consequences of each of her choices comes to a head, Aurora begins to realize that, sometimes, one tiny decision can ripple through a life and change everything. But when what once felt like a safe and reliable future becomes something else, will Aurora have the courage to make a final decision that could alter the course of her entire life?
Reviewed by Stephanie
When I see the name Molly McAdams attached to a story I know it’s definitely going to be good, she is just one of those authors that no matter what never fails to disappoint. Usually her stories gut me an have me a blubbering mess. This one was a little different, it didn’t gut me or have me buying stock in Kleenex but once again Molly McAdams did not disappoint with this book or these characters. Yes this is a love triangle and I know some people don’t necessarily like that but yeah ,I’m not one of those people. I totally like reading a good love triangle. I will say for a while the way this book was set up was a bit confusing. It jumps from past to present to one month ago back to present and then all over the place. It took me a while to get shake the confusion that caused but it didn’t change how much I enjoyed the story.
Rorie and her best friend Taylor decide to let loose one night and not be the good girls everyone thought they were. They wanted one night were they could do whatever they wanted and with whoever they wanted and not have to worry about the consequences the next day. Rorie meets J and the two have this crazy intense hot as hell connection and spend one night together, both agreeing that’s all it is. Just one night.
“In those few words, I knew that the sound of his voice would haunt my mind for years to come.”
But after that night Rorie can’t seem to stop thinking about J so she drags Taylor back to a party at the same place she last saw him, only to find he isn’t there. Instead she meets sexy Declan who saves her after she chokes on an extra-large piece of candy and her shoe knocks him in the head. Yeah weird first meeting but hey they just go with it lol. Rorie and Declan start a pretty solid relationship even though unbeknownst to Declan she just can’t get her amazing one night stand off her mind, even after a year. But when Declan’s best friend who has been deployed comes home and he introduces him to Rorie, she finds herself staring into the same eyes that haunt her dreams.
“The past was standing right in front of me, begging to be seen. As if I had ever stopped seeing him.”
Let the full- fledged love triangle commence. Rorie immediately upon seeing J or Jentry again is drawn to him, but is unwilling to let her relationship with Declan go. Declan is safe and he truly loves her but when Jentry tells her how he feels she is torn and doesn’t know what to do. So begins the lying and deceit that can only last so long.
When a tragedy strikes love and loyalty are put to the test. And when everything all three tried to keep secret comes out who will Rorie end up with?
“Falling in love with you was the easiest thing I’ve ever done.”
This was such a well written story, despite the confusion with the back and forth of the chapters. I found myself really invested in these characters, but I will say as much as I really like them all I loved Declan so much. This book had some not so well liked secondary characters, actually I loathed one so much that I found her parts of the story extremely irritating and had a hard time with her actually being in the story at all. But with that being said this was another great read from Molly McAdams and can’t wait for more from her.
He reached for me, but I shot my hand out in a silent plea for him not to. I was already shaking from keeping myself from him. I didn’t want to think about what I would do if he touched me now.
The past was standing right in front of me, begging to be seen. As if I had ever stopped seeing him. As if I had ever pulled myself from the embers of that night. That night was a dance of flames that had no ending, only respites. One touch from him and those embers would roar to life again, burning hotter and higher.
I wanted it.
I couldn’t allow it. Not now, not with everything going on.
I dropped my head and took quick steps to leave the closet, but Jentry’s arm shot out to stop me, his hand curled against my waist possessively.
“Don’t. Please don’t.”
He ignored me and pulled me against him so my side was pressed to his chest. My body trembled as those flames got higher. But with the flames that guilt grew and grew, threatening to cripple me.
“You hurt, I hurt,” he reminded me. “And, Aurora, seeing you like this and not being able to fix it is killing me. I’m sorry for what happened. I’m so damn sorry, and I’m sorry I wasn’t here sooner.” Each word was laced with pain, echoing the aches in my heart and my soul. “But you are out of your mind if you think it was easy for me not being here. I have regretted letting you go, every minute of every fucking day. If I could do that first night all over again I would, and I would’ve been there for you. I would have been here.”
The tears that had filled my eyes finally slipped free at his words and the memory of that night.
“But you did let me go, and no matter how much we beg time to reverse, it won’t.”
His body deflated against mine as regret leaked from him. “No, it won’t. But I’m here now. I’m here, and we’re going to get through this.”
So much indecision and confusion wove through me. Wants and needs at war with one another as they had already been for an agonizing amount of time.
My heart had bled out through each battle until I’d made a life-changing decision, a decision that Declan and I didn’t speak of, and one that Jentry still didn’t know. Now any move I could make from here on out would be the wrong one. I was sitting in a minefield, waiting.
“I tried to forget that night,” I whispered before I could stop myself. “I tried to forget you, but somehow you embedded yourself so deeply into my soul in just one night, that forgetting you—forgetting that night—was impossible. I don’t need a lifetime with you to know that no one and nothing will ever compare to what’s between us. But it’s too late for anything involving us even if it’s just us getting through this, because that night and you are now some of my biggest regrets.”
Want to know how the music matches to the book?
Here are the songs linked up to the parts of the story!
Tonight – Mitch Lee, ft. Jocelyn Alice [Ch. 5: end of]
Whisper – Chase Rice [Part II]
Come Wake Me Up – Rascal Flatts [Ch. 6: Jentry’s POV]
9 Crimes – Damien Rice [Ch. 9]
Fallout – Marianas Trench [Ch. 10]
Over You – Ingrid Michaelson, ft. A Great Big World [Ch. 11]
Playing With Fire – Thomas Rhett, ft. Jordan Sparks [Part III]
Good To You – Marianas Trench, ft. Kate Voegele [Ch. 13: end of
Aurora’s POV/beginning of Jentry’s POV]
With Love – Christina Grimmie [Ch. 20 – Ch. 21: Aurora’s POV]
Powerful – Major Lazar, ft. Ellie Goulding, Tarrus Riley [Part V: first half]
Falling Slowly – Glen Hansard, ft. Marketa Irglova [Part V: second half]
Foolish Games – Jewel [Ch. 22: second half of Aurora’s POV]
Don’t Go – Jake Coco, ft. Caitlin Hart [Ch. 23: second half]
Perfectly – Chelsea Lee, ft. Jason Reeves [Ch. 25: first half]
We Don’t Have To Take Our Clothes Off – Ella Eyre [Ch. 26: second half]
Molly grew up in California but now lives in the oh-so-amazing state of Texas with her husband, daughter, and fur babies. When she’s not diving into the world of her characters, some of her hobbies include hiking, snowboarding, traveling, and long walks on the beach … which roughly translates to being a homebody with her hubby and dishing out movie quotes. She has a weakness for crude-humored movies and fried pickles, and loves curling up in a fluffy comforter during a thunderstorm … or under one in a bathtub if there are tornados. That way she can pretend they aren’t really happening.
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